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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 03:35

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I waited trembling.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I don,t even have a pension.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I write beautiful poetry .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My family never makes their pension either.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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I was seconnd youngest,

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im still living with it.

But, we were locked up after school.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She married twice! .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

When she asked me how she looked .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I was very sick at this time too.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She loved him until the end.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But ive been too sick for many years..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I couldn’t, believe it.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I will be 64.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Would this be the day?

Especially a lifetime of it.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

What did i know ?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

We all went to grammer schools

As i do to all so called friends.?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And i lived it daily.

Who then, do I blame.?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Put me off passion for life!!

I said to her

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

My life is so biszare .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One cannot live in the past .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Comes on , in middle age.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She was in good health!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She wouldn,t have been !

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She found it foreign!.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was scared of men, in general

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I could never make a relationship work though!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I think the readers, may guess!

I have no regrets .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

So, i spoilt her more .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Was to survive, this bastard.

But it wasn’t much.

All the time i was locked up.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

It was going to be , some day.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was 9 years of age.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Ive learnt so much.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

So whats the point in blame.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

This is soul school!.

We were not on the streets..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He knew the spot.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.